So yesterday was my father's birthday. He would have been 56 years old. I talked to my mom last night and she said it was hard, but that she saw a picture of him acting very goofy and it made her laugh and feel better. She seemed to be getting everything back in order. She has all her finances straightened out, so her life will start being normal now.I on the other hand are having issues... Not with my fathers birthday or death or anything like that. Out of all the kids, I am probably doing the best. More so cause I didn't see him that much, so not seeing him isn't a big deal. I mean I hurt and I miss my father (alot) but I don't dwell on it and get emotional all the time. I still think about calling him or needing to talk to him. Mostly when I know that I have to get my car fixed or have a question about a noise it is making. I do miss my father.
I was watching house on Monday and the episode we saw had a son who was about to die and a father who was needing to talk to him before hand. Made me tear up. The biggest regret I have is not talking to my father more and not getting to see him "alive" before I saw him in the hospital. I hadn't seen him in almost a year before we drove down that weekend. But the only thing I can do know is remember him and help my children to remember him. My youngest brother, Michael, made a statement to me and my other brother about his kids not ever getting to know their grandfather. Kaitlyn has only seen her papaw once, while he was alive and then once in the hospital. She will never know him. Abigail and Timothy know him and miss him.
So Happy Birthday dad. I know you would have enjoyed it.
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